take a deep breath

Monday, April 14, 2008

take a deep breath

The end, to the semester that is, is already in sight. 5 more weeks! It's so close, yet so far... so many things must transcend before it's finally time to leave.

It is just scary to think about the things I have to settle before the end of the semester... Academics, summer internship, the Europe trip.

I can't, and don't even dare to think ahead now... Just taking one step at a time.

On a lighter note, I couldn't believe my eyes when I got back my 2nd Andersen exam... lol. Seriously, I thought the exam was bad. Firstly, I went through my notes ONCE... Plus, during the exam, the girl beside me was happily munching nature valley bars... can you imagine? Here I was trying to concentrate so that I can put an essay together, and there you are creating a din with all your chewing. I was really irritated, and I even contemplated writing a postscript in my essay, to tell the professor to ban eating during exams. Thank God she was done with all her eating after 15 - 20 mins, and I did well for the paper. If not.. hah... Seriously, eat before the exam or something, because it is really disruptive to the people around you when you eat during exams... Anyway, distractions aside, I did not even know what I was writing during the exam. After the exam, I felt like crap. Now, I am just AMAZED at the art of bull...

And Mammoth cave that same weekend. Woo. An experience of a lifetime.

all spick and span before the tour

They weren't kidding when they said that the Wild Cave Tour is physically strenuous. It was mentally exhausting too... Personally, Kathleen's Crawl was the worst for me. All the leopard crawling drained my energy. If it wasn't for the encouragement from jo, roys and kh, I would have given up halfway... which is silly because you would have to leopard crawl all the way back anyhow... And an 18 inch high tunnel really doesn't give you a lot of space to adjust and be confortable. All the crawling took a toll on our knees, and it is really admirable how the guides are doing this every so often.
There was less crawling in the second part of the tour, but what was installed for us was just as challenging. The canyon walks were really good... and I really enjoyed them, although there was one where getting a good footing was tricky because the rocks were slippery, and there wasn't a good handhold anywhere... that was really scary. But I survived... haha.. thanks to jo, roys and kh:)

And yes, I think it would be really cool to spend a night in the cave. I love how it becomes pitch black once we turn off the headlights. Plus the lovely temperature around the tens...

Oh yes, and something that we concurred on: if not for the helmets, we would have suffered from concussions... bumping into the roof of the cave was quite a common occurrence...

Look at us after

with Ranger John, in all our caving glory

not so clean after it all. But really really glad we went for the tour:)

Pictures courtesy of kh:)

Sunday was another adventure in itself... in the interest of time, it's a story that I'll blog about some other time... Got back to Madison on Sunday later than expected, and could not do much about Biochemistry the next day...

Hah... I think I screwed up Biochemistry... bigtime. Screwed up many other things too... Trying to take things in my stride... Getting better but yes, it isn't easy at all. I guess after it all, you see that what is meant to be will be. What is not meant to will never be.

what a day

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

I baked some cookies.
I cleaned and tidied my room.
I did my laundry.

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I cleared the trash and
sorted the papers and ads
I could recycle.

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I printed my notes.
I made a photo collage.
I grocery-shopped.

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Then it was dinner.
Then I watched some trashy show
Now it's time to sleep...

ahhh.

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Delayed reaction
on the morning of wednesday
But it worked wonders...

crap

Friday, April 04, 2008

ahhh... it is close to 1am now, and I am not even halfway through the material I need to cover for my exam at 12.05pm later today.
Panicking, and nothing seems to be going in anymore. And I want to sleep. But there are still so many things on my mind, on top of the exam.
Things that I have to settle before leaving for Kentucky later in the afternoon. I have to make a trip to the mall after my exam, to get a pair of boots. My winter boots, though non-slip, will never pass the test cause they need to have deeply threaded soles, and I don't want to be turned away just before the tour. I have to draw money. I have to pack. I have to go to lab. All in an hour and a half.
And things I have to settle for summer. And many many more...

My priorities are in a mess... ahh! Trying to search for the has been, but realizing that it might not even have been in the first place. Or maybe is not meant to be anymore. Tiring myself out... looking and feeling like crap...